Friday, December 29, 2006
etir syawla gnileef fo esruc a...
noitubirter ym si sit ebyam...
ni flesym ezeeuqs ot gniyrt...
dna denniks-kciht gnieb...
ereht artxe na mi kniht i...
1:05 AM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Are all the tings im doing now correct??? It seems like im the cause of the moodiness ard me....and tat im forcing myself too hard...i really donno... or maybe i really shld juz be alone and not join any grps??? I really have not find a grp tat can really be asked to go out wif...and most of the ting the grps i had is more or less i feel tat im an extra party inside the grp...maybe is really my fate of being alone???now one grp of my frens starts to pang seh me...guess there will be more next???juz a feeling i get....haix i really donno wad will happen in the future....
12:19 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Its been a long time since i last walked alone in the rain...and i walked yest i kept tinking of tings...of wad happened in my life so far...did my actions really made some tings to happen??? i always tot tat im a low profile person whr my actions will nvr have any impacts on anyting... i wonder if it is true...
and after reading sometings yest and seeing some tings...my mind goes into chaos...am i doing the rite ting??? are all the tings i do worth??? frm the way i see it...i juz tink im stupid but yet i kept going...wonder am i juz pure dumb or wad...i keep having the feeling tat im slowly going further and further away frm them... is it really true or am i juz tinking too much??? i really dont wish to go further away...i juz hope tat wadeva i tink are wrong whr actually 90% of the time im correct...i juz hope for once im wrong....
all the ting i tried so hard always ended up in a bad ending...tried to organize a outing wif sec sch frens..didnt even happen...made an outing wif poly frens got said im a poor organizer and have a sian environment all around me...guess my only accompany is myself...
i really wish to remain a neutral party but situations juz dont want to let me be neutral...wadeva i do or say ppl starts to complain...and maybe is time for me to ans a long qn tat i didnt ans...y i bottle up all my probs...the ans is i dont really have a fren tat understands wad im feeling and hw i feel...so i really wonder if i really have a problem tat i cant solve wad will i do???
1:24 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
My onli christmas wish from santa is tat i hope tat im able to be a listening ear for someone and tat will be able to listen wadeva problems she have....
i hope tat im able to do tis as a fren...but it maybe hard for her to tink it tis way... but tis is the least tat i wish i can do...
so i wish for her to cheer up and be happy... =)
11:29 PM
tis yrs christmas eve outing was a total failure and damn boring not to say sianzation all ard me... tot i can have a happy christmas eve countdown with my sec sch frens...but no...ended all gimme me ans saying tat they can go and worse there is ppl who didnt even reply...tats one part of being demoralized..next asked my poly frens out...some ppl go...and there are some who keep giving me ans saying not sure...due to one word "LAZY"....and whn im out wif my frens...all of them are like sian sian one...dont feel like gg anywhr...so if u guys really dont want to go out juz say so...I feel worse of like pulling u guys along wif me whn u guys arent really interested....I shld have called my other clique of frens to go for a drink instead...haix
I envy those grps tat i see in orchard or some other places tat are having fun with one another and able to celebrate christmas wif their frens...y cant my frens be like tis??? I really wish tat i can have some frens tat i can organize a big grp to go out to celebrate tis kind of ocassion...haix...
Well next sat will have a so-called Post christmas celebration by my frens...not too sure if im able to make it coz i will have a gathering wif my initial D teammates...been a long time since i last see all of them...and the so-called organizer had made some loopholes tat i know is fake and all...some tings are juz too obvious... well i shall see hw abt tat coz i really miss going out wif my team....
shall go pass the remaining boring hours of tis BORING christmas alone by slping thru it.....haix
3:19 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Its been raining for one whole day today...well it stopped and rained, then stop and rained again...the cycle repeated for one whole day today...up till now the time im posting tis entry... didnt manage to have any programs today...so stayed at hm the whole day which was damn bored...haix....
planning on WS bday next thur...have a bad feeling tat it will not turn out to be a fun event...as i start to have saddening replys alrdy...haix...maybe everyone are too busy... speaking of which im slowly getting sick and tired of organizing stuff...everytime i do tat...it sure to end up having ppl giving me last min reply saying tat they are unable to make it...y is it always li tat...if not ppl will juz say cancel the whole event whn it actually was half-way planned out...like wth... haix...soon i will lose my patience in organizing event alrdy....
tis sun gonna be christmas eve...tink its gonna be a bored and lonely chirstmas for me....have noting planned out... my current chirstmas wish is to celebrate chirstmas wif you...but doubt it will come true.... so wonder wad am i gonna do to pass my remaining time???
9:29 PM
Monday, December 18, 2006
Today celebrated CN birthday...didnt really turn out to be a fun day....was lazing at hm till ard 3pm+ thn wnt to cut my hair...but to be frank the persononli helped to trim my hair instead...wasted my $12...wth
thn went to cn hus laze thr till everyone reach...played MSG:OP on WS psp...completed quite a few missions....one of my fav game...cant miss playing it....haha...after every1 had reached...oredered pizza and there was more waiting to be done...thn had pizza...rested for awhile...then eat cn bday cake...well none of us was tinking of smashing the cake on him...he ended up smashing it on his own...LOL...*YT dont come find me ar after see the pic below*
well was quite a dull session...so yeah....next up will be WS bday...hope it will be more fun and interesting...muahahahahaha...
well today is not all dull...manage to catch up my slps..haha...and some ting happy happened...shall not reveal it...ahaha...
well is raining outside of my hus now...a gd ting to slp...at the same time a gd time to look out the window and have a look and tink of things while listening to music...yeah...
what CN did on HIS OWN!!!!
11:22 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
Finally term-test is over...finally can relax for some time to let my mind and body rest frm all the studying and rushing of assignments...and i can finally play my World of Warcraft...yeah =D
well had an accident while playing basketball yest...CN fell and knocked his head on the floor... brought him to the hospital and was suspected to have skull fracture...hope its nth major and tat he will be able to recover soon and fast...
now i juz hope all of my frens to be able to relax and have some fun during tis break...and tat they will not be stress wif other tings and able to get back all their strength used for tis test... and it will be sometime b4 i can see my frens agn...so for now...shall relax
1:24 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Is being able to guess what is going to happen in the future and it does come true a blessing or a curse??? I really wonder....
What is the meaning of buddy(s)??? is it close frens??? ppl ez to get along with??? or juz some ppl to help u whn u need help???or is it all of the above??? apprently i cant get the real meaning of "buddy"...
Tinking of worse case scenario a gd ting or a bad ting??? is it gd to tink of the worse case scenario and prevent it frm happening???or is it bad to tink too far ahead???
all these are the tinking of a pessimistic person...is being a pessimistic person a blessing or a curse??? Do optimistic ppl noe wad pessimistic ppl tink???and vice versa... do optimitic ppl noe hw a pessimistic person feel???and vice versa...
all these qns revolve ard my head...are my decision wise???if i had not done it what will happen???apprently i see myself gg deeper and deeper into some tinking...and apprently i noe is rite... time to start a game??? or is it too early or is there a need for me to start tis game??? as i had already inserted the credits...all i need to do is beat the hi-score...tink tink tink
2:39 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
term test coming in 2 days time...haven relly started studying and all...argh....i fear im unable to archive my gpa of more than 3.0 =S
well yest had steamboat at ding jie hus... well is more of a cover up for the surprise for joel's bday...haha... the food there was not bad...onli had the trouble of taking my deep fryer back hm...shucks...
more or less it was quite ok...although i didnt really do much tings yest....juz cooked some fried food for my frens,eat and nth else...didnt really play much or tok much too...so yea...
shall go study now...
4:27 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
great...just great...tings juz getting worse and worse each time... now tings i do are all wrong...i nvr do someting tat is correct...every single small actions are wrong...so wad the hell...maybe i shld juz get banged by a car or jump off a building and and my exsistence will be gone...isn't tat better...everyone will be happy...coz there will be no one left to do someting tat is always wrong... so maybe i shld juz disappear frm tis world...then every1 will be happy.....
2:06 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Been tinking of tis word...what it means??? Does it means getting ppl to notice u?? if so maybe i should not use tis word on myself at all...coz i qn myself sometimes...am i really there???
well tats in context of sch environment...i noe outside of sch i can happily walk ard toe payoh head high trying to say tat im frm Team FREE...and im really hornoured to be put in the position as Assistant-Leader of my team...im really happy tat im able to set a name in the Initial D world...yea
but in sch its a totally diff story...its like i feel so small and tiny...and tat every other ppl are so big and stepping all ard me...and tat im not noticable until im really need thn ppl will start looking for me...other thn tat i feel tat im juz another normal guy walking ard the poly waiting for time to pass and graduate frm there...so yea...e
i have seen my frens having ppl noticing thm even whn there is nth major going on...and really envy those who can easily entertain other ppl...and tis leaves me to tink whether i can make ppl happy and have them entertained...maybe i cant be like thm...tats me...juz a normal boring guy i guess...
-cant make ppl happy, entertained, wad else...tats me
9:45 PM
well got back my Basic Financial Accounting test 1 results yesterday...got 24.5/30....not bad i guess...quite satisfied wif the result ^.^
wif term-test juz ard the corner...must start studying and get a gd result for my term-test...so can help me get to me target...but recently i suddenly juz realised sumting which i tink is not a gd ting...i really wonder y tings will turn out like this...is it a gd ting or a bad ting??? i really dont know...haix...
i hope that tings will turn out to be better and not bad...even it will be slow progression...i dont mind if tings turns out to be good.... =S
12:02 AM
Monday, December 04, 2006
Finally assignment is over...i can rest for awhile to catch my breath and get rdy for my term-test which is round the corner...gonna aim to get as many As and Bs as possible...and to my target of more then 3.0GPA...so i shld study hard soon...yeah!!!
Work at sitex was sucky...lousy pay wif long working hrs, wif a XL supervisor which keep saying tat im not doing a gd job...so ended up giving her attitude whn she gave me while toking to me...and quarrelled wif her and leading me to quit the job...lucky i didnt scold vagurities to her...was abt to...she got lucky...
Yest YT bday was fun...having her face smashed into a super creamy cake...WOOOO!!! so fun...and she got sprayed wif whipped cream all over her hair...hahaha...lucky im safe by juz standing there doing nth and filming the whole thing...muahahahahahaha *evil laughter*
bought a new 2.1 creative speaker at sitex yest...the sound quality and bass is DAMN nice and strong la...IM IN LOVE WITH IT(for now)...my first 2.1 speakers...and cost onli $50...wasted i didnt get the one I am more interested in...a 2.1 speaker wif a wood bass...i so want tat...but is out of stock...DAMN!!!! but well...the current speaker is oso gd...for $50...
well cant on my com to listen to the music and slp...damn...if i could i will...so yea..gotta rest soon...need my rest...
12:36 AM
