Thursday, February 22, 2007
finally now to start studying for exams..BUT im still in the holi mood leh...totally no mood to study for my exams...HOW?!?!?!?!?! nvm shall force myself to study and be in the study mood and aim for the results tat i have been aiming for so long....shall not let tis to stop me frm getting tat... as i have my target set there for a purpose....
well...finally my body immunue system is not able to fight back the virus alrdy...today fell sick in sch and i tot is onli for awhile onli..but nooo...it became worse...lol...and i apprently caught a cold said the doctor...wif a temperature of 38.9 degree...LOL...but nvm...wad affect me the most is being giddy frm time to time and lack of strength to do anyting....
well shall force myself to rest early today...haha
-ever since tat...i've been tinking of tings tat i may happen...sometimes i fear it myself-
9:25 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
finally hus visits are over...well one ting i must say is tat the "income" i got has decreased tis yr...and the hus visit has become much more boring thn b4...no dun toks or wad so ever as there totally no topics to tok abt wif my relatives...whr some are tooo much by showing attitude to my mum....and some who tinks singers and actors/actresses are lousy...so yea
well wnt out wif my sec sch buddies yest for a meal at pizza hus and wnt to some KTV in bedok to sing...well although is not as gd as k-box...but is still gd and is affordable price...and concluded tat english songs suits me better thn chinese songs...lol
shall start to study after a gd nite slp today....
well wonder what is tis....totally donno what is going on and cant figure it out yet...
1:35 AM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Wish everyone a Happy Lunar New Year...
Best of luck in everything...
Maybe everyone have a happy year ahead with lots of luck and fortune...
12:32 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
What gives u fucking guys the right to talk abt fairness?!?!?! so u tink changing of CMSK class due to the teacher and getting higher grades for ur own fucking self is fair?!?!?! SCREW YOU GUYS!!!! wanna noe who u are??? i shall say it out... TAN BOON KHENG, STEVEN LIEW WEIJIAN, YAO HUI(DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN IF I SPELL RIGHT OR WRONG), LEE YI YAN. ask u guys nicly why dress till so nice give fucking lame excuse saying go "date", go "match make"...FUCK YOU...u guys go fucking gay better... thn ask u agn nicely today say got someting on and will not understand wad ting... and still can say go NUS...pls la u tink we 3 yr old kids ar...frm tamp go NUS and back to TP can make it in time by 10+am...dont be lame la...wif ur CHEAPSKATE character u will nvr take cab...so is impossible for u to travel back and forth in tis timing...CAN...unless u go there at 6am la...which is totally impossible __
nvm...during SSSD lab...interview are normally first come first serve basis...even other class are like tis...so what is the fucking problem of us going first whn the teacher ask u guys to go up none of u want... FUCKING COWARDS!!! and BOON KHENG can happily say is unfair...do u tink u have the rights to say abt fairness?!?!?! and u guys can say the teacher favor us??? WTH... we tok alot to teacher means the teacher favor us la...thn u guys every time tok to dr nalaka means tat he favor u all lor...same logic rite...use ur fucking punny brains la...
BOON THEAM dont fucking give ur attitude lor...u tink u very gd ar... and keep wanting to go first and go hm dont come sch la...tink so gd dont study la...stay at hm everyday play World of Warcraft lor...fucking no life idiot...
so u fucking guys...tink of ur actions first b4 saying other ppl and giving fucking attitude... and tink whether u got the rights to say fucking tings not...knnccb...read liao not happy come sch find me la...i will be waiting __
10:25 PM
well can say yest valentine day is one of my first to go out and celebrate...but not alone wif a gal tat is...wif a grp of frens...but it was fun...but somehw i feel tat im missing someting and did not do someting...really a funny empty feeling im having...but donno wad is tat missing ting..hmmmm...
well first attempt in baking chocolate chip cookies and giving as a valentine day present...haha...well go some compliments frm some ppl...and the compliment frm my bestie really made me very happy...thx alot shereen =)
now hope tat the other container will taste as gd...afraid will turn soft =x
and hope tat she will like the cookies *fingers crossed*
well had a fun time overall...and some fotos taken...if want see pls visit
http://joanna72639.blogspot.com/ to view the pics =P
well wish everyone a happy valentine day!!!
1:30 AM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Simple and clean post here....
im tired... eyes closing... eyes are dry...wanna slp!!!!
shall rest eyes now....
special operations successfully completed!!!
12:02 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
finally all my assignments are done...phew...hope it will not fare badly...hope tat i can reach my target of a GPA ard 3.3
shitified....why is TP so stupid of having exam RIGHT AFTER CNY!!!!! tats pure stupidity...and our CNY wk is happily our STDUY WK!!!! WTH!!!!! who in the rite mind will do tis...only TP WILL!!!! but at least they give us 2mths of holi....which are much longer thn other schs....so tat can some wad clear HALF of their madness of the exam time.... and MWC is really feaking slow in their reply for OSIP...wth are they doing?!?!?!?!?! we are having shorter and shorter time to plan for our attachments....so make it quick MWC!!!! F***
now wif all the proj done...will be undergoing a special operation and is alrdy underway...so yea...time to complete.... TBA....
12:14 PM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
the word is WHY??? why now??? am i stupid or STUPID??? nvr realising it sooner and by the time i realise is far to late....but i will not give up juz yet...it somehw is my character to do tat
my mind now is really in total chaos...i really dont want tis to happen and all...everyting really juz changed in a blink of an eye...i dont mind myself being tortured in tis ting by myself...but i juz dont wish my frens to suffer the same ting as me...i juz want them to be happy and be back to be like last time... it is juz me...i always will place other ppl way b4 myself...and allow myself to support thm till they are safe and alright...
so i juz wish it will be better...and be back to the same as last time.... no matter wad happens..i will hold on nvr give up...even if it means to sacrifice wadeva is mine to make others happy i will do it...i juz hope tat tings will be back to the way it was and tat i will nvr leave u in darkness full of worries...coz i noe hw it feels... really hope tat tings will change back...even thou im not someone of importance to u...
我不会放弃,
我相信飞上天空了,一定会下来的,
飞走了的话,我一定会追到它下来,
不然我会一起飞上天陪伴它.
如果是我,我会一直飞而不降落到我能看到它站在原地那里,
到我能飞到它生边才降落,
,我一定不会让它离开.
8:39 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
well alot of tings is gg on in my mind... tings like assignment, job, major project and some other tings tat i shall not disclose the details...
everyting seems so close and im quite lost of wad to do...some maybe i have half decision of wad to do...but still there is the other half...haix....
heard alot frm ppl...and wad they say really surprised me and leaves me wondering abt it...
i really am lost and confused on wad really happened... i juz trust my feelings tat there is more to juz tat ting...no matter wad other ppl say i still believe in my own tinking and feeling for tis...it is not as simple as it seems to be there is juz gotta be more to it...and i noe it...
i really wonder wad happened...and i dont wish to give up on doing anyting and leave tings the way it is...letting tings go and pass by itself is nvr in my char of doing tings...and i really hope tat i can noe the reason for tis ting... i dont care if it really pressure me alot...i noe my char is tat i place other tings like frens b4 myself and will always help thm instead of myself...
so i really hope i can noe the reason of wad is happening and help...i really wish so...
(if u're reading tis i really hope tat u can be like ur old self and be happy agn...wish tat smile will return and be seen once agn...really really wish it to happen)p.s: yt i noe u say some tings to me...but tis is me...dont worry i noe wad im doing...so yea =)
11:33 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Finally is wearing formal time...juz had formal presentation yest on my TAIN assignment...well wnt quite well execept for me keep sneezing the whole day donno wads wrong...
now the next one will be my CMSK report presentation next thur...gd ting is in the morning..i can change out of it after tat =)
well pass few days really laughed alot...lots of funny tings happened....but at the same time i feel tat some unhappy tings happened else whr too...
i juz wish tat the unhappy tings can be gone quickly... so tat the smile can be returned and will be a pleasent sight...i really wish tat to happen really really really soon... but now i cant do anyting...really wish tat i can do sometings to make tat pleasent outcome arrive faster....
12:52 AM
Monday, February 05, 2007
well for the pass 2 days Sat and Sun...been laughing quite alot esp on Sat whn im out wif my initial D teammates...its been a damn freaking long time since i last hang out wif them...been like 3-4mths..no wait...i tink i lost count of the months..is tat long ok...
well met some of thm on sat...still hoping tat i can have a chance to get a full strength team outing...if it really happens...it will be damn freaking FUN!!! hope tat in future can have tis chance...well on sat manage to some what finalise our decision of our team shirt hope it will not drag any longer...thn wnt to bugis frm beach rd...walked ard thn hanged ard at the arcade...thn wnt to had dinner at seoul garden....well had a great time shooting at LANCE...hahaha...most zai shooter tat day is Leon...hahaha...and Phil is a great "DOT" caster of LANCE....haha... all of us more of laughed till full instead of eat...ok la....tats abit too extrem...but poor LANCE is out target tat day...haha...thn hanged ard the aracde agn after dinner till ard 11+ thn wnt hm...
left to right: LANCE, Rion aka Adrian
left to right: Phil, Leon, Rudolph
on sun im damn tired...donno y...thn wnt yt hus to do TAIN presentation ppt...but for a very very short while...haix...shld not have go...haha...thn wnt to TM and CS to walk ard and wnt to tamp library to hunt for some tings...and managed to photographed it...haha...thn met dj, zw, yk, joel, ws for dinner at bedok int...the dessert was the most memoriable ting we had...mixed fruits ice tat is damn big....u can see it at the pic below...haha....well had a great time for the pass 2 days...esp on saturday wif my teammates...looking forward to seeing them agn....
The BIG dessert we had...
After the dessert is in our stomache...
12:42 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
What is happening to me??? What is becoming of me??? Why is tis happening??? im totally lost...and have not a slightest clue on wad is going on and wad happened....
Is it because of the expections i wanna have??? or is it juz me going to be mad??? i really have no idea...maybe wad i had in mind backfired...
maybe i feel tat im lousy...tats y i try to strive to be better and wanna prove someting??? but now in the end i guessed it back fired at me right in the face...haix....and in the end maybe i didnt manage to get anyting or proved anyting...instead juz stayed at the same exact spot and didnt move???
due to my actions and mistakes i did...it caused a much more bigger consequence which affected me and the rest....and i tink im the one to be blamed...
wonder wad can i do to amend all tis...and change everyting....
2:18 AM
