Monday, April 30, 2007
weee...blogging during office hour...lol...ok 50min - 1hr more till knock off and finish my work...so slacking time....but to be frank there is nth much to do for me to slack...so shall rot in my seat...lolx
hiax...is so diff to explain to one person tat life is nvr fair...even to myself...it juz takes time for thm to understand i guess...a world is nvr balance/fair/equal wadeva word u wanna use...there is always unfairness in the world...juz like some ppl get credits whn they dont work tat hard, and thru relations, while there are ppl who dont get credits whn they work hard...
one person will seldom or nvr be contented wif wad they alrdy have, but tis have a gd and bad cause...the gd is tat there will be improvments...like the world...ppl want tings to be more and more convinent tats y technology nvr stops improving... the down side of tis is tat... there is poverty in the world...whr the rich becomes richer and poor becomes poorer and the rich can afford all the tings and have comfortble life, while the poor cant.....and the ironic ting is tat both parties are nvr contented wif wad they have
well...tis juz some random topic wif random tots coz im bored at the office currently...haha
but life nvr easy... there is always ups and downs...onli hw high and hw low it gets...yup
-words the hear and say to chance the have i will whn wonder-
5:12 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
hmmm...one wk is gone for SIP...can say got to noe the ppl there better alrdy...
and juz found out tat one of the interns frm Nee Ann Poly the way he tok is very very similar to one of my sec sch fren oon peng...his voice, action, the way he tok all is very similar...but his char is almost the opp of oon peng??? maybe donno the interns fully yet so not sure...but if so...is it really true tat there is 2 faces on a coin??? so maybe they are the 2 diff sides of a coin wif diff personality ba...well i cant say tat now...
been a long time since i wnt out eat wif my parents...today wnt out to east coast sea food centre and had chill crab wif thm...well the sauce was alrite onli and the crab too...but today somehw the shell today came off in one piece...so i can juz eat the crab meat as 1 piece...wifout peeling..haha
anyways i shld not have tok abt it today... after toking abt it made me in a state of trance and donno wad gg on in my head...kept tinking abt it...haix...
now wad i hope is wad u say is true...but i still tink my feeling is true...unless it proves me wrong which i hardly tink will happen....haix
i really wish and hope tat i can have the chance to speak it out once agn...but i juz dont dare and cant say it out...if onli i have a chance and dare to say out once agn...haix...wad a loser i am...
12:21 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
3 days had passed since the start of my SIP... OpenMobile...hmm...well the company has nice ppl...esp jacqueline my supervisor...can say she is those kind of slacking supervisor??? well not sure hw to describe her actually...haha
one word to describe my job is slack and boring(opps tats 2 words...lets juz ignore wad i say abt 1 word ok haha) so far for the pass 3 days i had been toking on MSN for at least half a day...thn the other half i was assigned some little work tat can be done very quickly...haix
and after hearing another intern saying tat my supervisor WILL NOT give us any programming tings to do or to even debug i feel damn sad la...which means i wont be able to learn new programming tings...haix...and was still having hopes of learning new tings...but now i guess it will nvr happen...really damn sad sia...now all i do is some simple minor tasks...haix...even asking the seniors they tell us tat jobs are alrdy assigned so they cant do anyting...and feel like they dont want us to help...whn we ask is there anyting to do they said "nope" but at the same time they can say tat they are busy...so wad are they trying to say??? hmmm
haix...i really hope tat i will be able to touch one programming tings so tat i can learn new tings...if not i tink i really gonna make full use of my freelance webdesigning to help myself alrdy...haix...damn sad...
12:24 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
yest was my first day of work fo my attachment...well the company is not as bad as i tink it will be...and i got one the tings i hope for...all the ppl her are nice and did i mention tat my supervisor character like yt...loves to take pic of herself...but she have a photographer standard coz she was one b4 she joined to company....
for yest and today no work was assigned to us as i tink all of them are bz wif thier thigs...as i tink we entered at a period tat they are handling some major projects of trying to colaborate wif singtel(tis company is a content provider for telcos...like starhub which they are providing now) so i guess tis company is a uprising company since it is cloborating wif a few big companys like starhub, sega, THQ...many more...
but yest and today (till tis time im blogging...donno got anyting later on) i pratically toked for msn and surf the net and rot in office...some one help me and keep me entertained... =(
i really hope tat they will give us work to do soon...if not i really dont tink i will be able to learn anyting...but i dont tink tat will happen rite...i hope...and i really hope i can learn quite a few tings frm tis attachment coz now having feeling i wont learn much...pls let it be wrong...
well i juz hope tat tings will turn out better as time goes...and i can learn alot of tings...
for now im juz slacking and rotting....
Labels: rot in SIP
12:51 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
3 more days till the start of my SIP(attachment)... afew tings im wondering rite now...
1) how will the company be like, as in the environment...hope i will feel relax and all kind of environment.
2) who is the other poly student wif me in the same company or will it be me onli in the company...
3)The ppl there...hope got good supervisors ^-^ haha
had a fun time playing basketball today...been a long time since i played tis hard...whr i overstrained my calf muscles...haha...but it shows tat i got use alot of energy...haha...onli down part is there was no sun today! argh...
well shall catch the remaining avilable days for me to slp till late b4 my attachment starts...onli fear tat my biological clock is not adjusted yet...but i believe it will adjust back fast...haha...
hope my work place will be fun!
and envy 2 of my frens going overseas for attachment...haix... =
-Illusions will nvr come true...-
2:30 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
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Kizuna by Kat-Tun
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Romanji Lyrics
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saki no kotodore hodo ni kangaete ite mo
hontou no koton ante dare nimo mie nai
kuuhaku? kokoro ni nani ka ga tsumatte
ayamachi bakari kuri kaeshiteta
ippo zutsu de ii sa kono te wo hanasazu ni
tomo ni ayunda hibi ga iki tsuzuketeru kara
boro boro ni naru made hiki sakarete ite mo
ano toki no ano basho kienai kono kizuna
nagare yuku jikan no naka ushinawanu you ni
sure chigai butsukatta hontou no kimochi
kokoro ni shimiteku aitsu no omoi ni
de aeta koto ga motometa kiseki
tachi domaru koto sae dekinai kurushi sa no
naka ni mieta hikari tsunagatte iru kara
uso tsuita tte ii sa namida nagashite ii kara
ano toki no ano basho kie nai kono kizuna
ippo zutsu de ii sa kono te wo hanasazu ni
tomo ni ayunda hibi ga iki tsuzuketeru kara
boro boro ni naru made hiki sakarete ite mo
ano toki no ano basho kienai kono kizuna
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English Translation
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No matter how much they think about what's ahead
No one can see the real thing
Emptines? Something blocks my heart
I just repeated my mistakes
It's alright to take it one step at a time, not letting go of my hand
Because we can continue living the days that we walked together
Even if we are drug along until we get worn out
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond
So that I don't get lost amidst the passing time
I just missed colliding with my true feelings
Her feelings color my heart
Meeting her was the miracle that I was looking for
I could see a light amidst the sadness that was so great
That I couldn't even stand still, because we are connected
It's alright if you lie to me, it's alright if you cry
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond
It's alright to take it one step at a time, not letting go of my hand
Because we can continue living the days that we walked together
Even if we are drug along until we get worn out
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond
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another nice song. From the show gokusen season 2. It is one of the insert songs however...not its opening or closing theme...but still find it super nice...
uploaded it as my background music...so enjoy...
-really wish to say it out once agn... the words " " which is stolen frm my mouth-
1:08 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
| Your Birth Month is July |
 Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker.You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life.
Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart
Your gemstone: Ruby
Your flower: Larkspur
Your colors: Green and red |
| Your Birthdate: July 19 |
 You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself.
Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence
Your weakness: Suspicion of others
Your power color: Eggplant
Your power symbol: Spade
Your power month: October |
| Your Luck Quotient: 51% |
 You have an average luck quotient.There's been times when you've been extremely lucky... but also times when you've been very unlucky.You probably know that you can make your own luck in life, if you're open to it.So listen to your intuition as much as you can. It's right more often than you might expect. |
hmmm...interesting site i got frm one of my fren's blog...is somewhat true ba...tats all i can say...go ahead...click the link and give it a shot...there are others to play wif too =)
1:03 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
sian...y me???
foreva having my gut feeling to come true....wth!
so shitty...its juz so shitty!!!
11:15 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
after so long finally we get to know our attachment company...but i must say tat im quite diappointed in the company tat i got...first nvr hear b4, second is a small private company = low pay.
after seeing the job scope and the pay i feel tat im not really happy wif the pay...ya i noe ppl will say attachment is to gain experience blah blah blah...but who really wont see the pay they will get?!?!?! unless u are telling me tat u can dont care abt the pay and work, and unless u are trying to tell me tat u dont mind working for free... haix...the bloody pay really demoralise me man....
i dont mind working for a higher pay if the company keep asking me to do tings and keep me bz...i rather have tat...as i tink i can learn more tis way as i will consistently be doing some tings, and wif me bz...time will pass much faster oso...so yea..argh
hope the company allocation is not finalised ...but i noe the chances are slim...so yea....HAIX!!!!
Labels: low pay
10:47 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
ever wonder wad does the word "life" means???
a simple 4-letter word, yet wif a complex and hard to figure out meaning to it...
i guess no one will every noe wad it means really...
everyone will have their own sets of meaning to it...
everyone oso have their tinking...theres nvr rite nor wrong to ones tinking
wad he tink maybe rite but maybe wrong for others...but we cant say for sure which is correct...
so maybe try tinking of wad the word "life" means in ur own context...
my own context is:
L-iving
I-n
F-ake
E-njoyment
-easier said thn done-
12:36 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
First Love - Utada Hikaru--------------------------------------Jap: saigo no kisu waEng: the last kissJap: tabako no flavor ga shitaEng: tasted like tobaccoJap: nigakute setsunai kaoria Eng: bitter and sad smellJap: ashita no imagoro ni waEng: tomorrow, at this timeJap: anata wa doko ni iru n' darouEng: where will you be?Jap: dare wo omotte 'ru n' darouEng: who will you be thinking about?Jap: you are always gonna be my loveEng: you are always gonna be my loveJap: itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite moEng: even if i fall in love with someone once againJap: i'll remember to loveEng: i'll remember to hold onJap: you taught me howEng: you taught me howJap: you are always gonna be the oneEng: you are always gonna be the oneJap: ima wa mada kanashii love songEng: it's still a sad songJap: atarashii uta utaeru madeEng: until i can sing a new songJap: tachidomaru jikan gaEng: the paused time isJap: ugoki-dasou to shite 'ruEng: about to start movingJap: wasuretaku nai koto bakariEng: there's many things that i don't want to forget aboutJap: ashita no imagoro ni waEng: tomorrow, at this timeJap: watashi wa kitto naite 'ruEng: i will probably be cryingJap: anata wo omotte 'ru n' darouEng: i will probably be thinking about youJap: you will always be inside my heartEng: you will always be inside my heartJap: itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru karaEng: you will always have your own placeJap: i hope that i have a place in your heart tooEng: i hope that i have a place in your heart tooJap: now and forever you are still the oneEng: now and forever you are still the oneJap: ima wa mada kanashii love songEng: it's still a sad songJap: atarashii uta utaeru madeEng: until i can sing a new songJap: you are always gonna be my loveEng: you are always gonna be my loveJap: itsuka dare ka to mata koi ni ochitemoEng: even if i fall in love with someone once againJap: i'll remember to loveEng: i'll remember to hold onJap: you taught me howEng: you taught me howJap: you are always gonna be the oneEng: you are always gonna be the oneJap: ima wa mada kanashii love songEng: it's still a sad songJap: now and forever..Eng:now and forever... nice song by one of my fav artist...first heard of her song thru the game Kingdom Hearts...a few nice songs by her i like...well quite envy those of my frens tat are able to go overseas for attachment...really want to go too...but haix...cant go =(so i hope i can get into a gd local company and not some ulu company tat didnt hear b4 one...which actually i have a feeling tat i will kana ulu company...but well hope tat i will be wrong
1:29 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
I believe tat singapore is running or the GEMS service campiagn juz ended...apprently either singapore sales promoter totally ignore tis ting or they onli put up a show...coz today whn i wnt down to funan to ask abt a fulty product, the sales person is totally rude and it totally spoiled my mood of being poliet to him...but i manage to let it pass...and after several testing and testing and testing, finally he got the product(a wireless adapter) to scan for a network, proving tat its not faulty and asked me to call the company Netgear directly...well cant argue much coz dont really noe the prob...onli wnt down for the sake of helping a fren... but totally sianz abt the attitude of the sales person...i guess all IT promoter are li tat...tinking tat they are the onli one tat noes everyting in IT...ironically i worked as IT show promoter b4...
i really dont understand y is there a GEMS campaign whn either ppl dont care or onli put up for show abt it...totally defeats the purpose of it... haix
well...finally another wk of sip had passed...wkends agn...woohoo!!!
er...having a very funny office situation in the office currently...donno wad my reaction shld be...but i donno y tis kind of situation always falls to me...weird...
really hope i cant bother all tis and dont care...but guess cant for the time being...
shall enjoy my long slp till the wkends....
9:54 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i really wonder y tat stupid "operation manage" (i tink he have no rights to be one as he is blur of wad to do actually) nvr ever changed or improve...since seeing him "work" since 2004 till now...his way of doing tings nvr change(no clear cut instructions, last min infomation, etc) making us keep doing double work...even now at the latest warehouse sales...his way of tinking is juz OFF... well enuf of tat...gonna see him for another 4 or 5 days...damn...
well yest dinner was fun...maybe...atmostphere i felt as certain time was quite heavy... and tots run thru my mind agn...
is it a gd ting or a bad ting i wonder whn tings nvr change??? tot of it as a bad ting juz run thru my head right away...i sometimes wonder a black sheep applys to me...maybe it does...maybe it dont...juz the word "maybe"...
-i do not have the courage to say it out once more...juz dont have it-
Labels: wondering and half-emo?
11:29 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
well juz manage to get a freelance web designer job...been wanting to try out tis job b4 but nvr had the confidence to do it, but luckily manage to get a "lobang" frm my sec sch D&T teacher. Actually is not abt the money tat im interested in, its more of the experience tat i can gain frm it...
since its the first website i and my frens gonna make... i tink tat alor can be lernt and the customer is damn kind in letting us try out and learn using their website...they even encourage us gaining the experience... damn gd sia
well i cant say its an ez job...need gather lots of requirements frm the customer and sometimes har to get due to fuzzy ideas...those who took SWEN shld noe wad im toking...its pratically SWEN taking on a real life pratical form...lolx
gaining suce extra experience b4 attachment i guess will be useful for me in the future =)
-feeling of lonliness and emptiness-
12:19 PM
