Wednesday, November 28, 2007
is time really up???
standing on a clock and see it passing by
is it me tinking too much???
tinking back on all the tots tat had gone thru my head b4
wad if "sixth sense" is true???
but it did fail me b4 but i really doubt the chances of wrong feeling
wonder do u stay up wif him...if so i got nth to say..but juz my feeling is rite...
-wad is my time now??? -
12:38 AM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
ok *warning to all reader* the following is a random-emo post by DallasKHL / whitecomet:
somehw during my day today...the tot of my existence does it means anyting???
wad if one day an accident happened or something happened to me and im no longer ard or someting similar??? will it be of a big impact to anyone...doubt so...since im juz a 1 human being out of millions of people in the world...haha
maybe it maybe even better??? maybe other ppl will have happiness??? well tat is an ans tat is totally impossible to find out...haha
i have no idea y tis tot juz comes to my mind...haha...
like i said its juz some random-emo thought...so pls dont get bothered by it to all those who read tis...haha
guess is my right-eye tat is giving me some probs tat lead me to tis tot?? i donno
-blurry vision-
1:00 AM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
hmmm...i now wonder wad i shld do...
said out wad i felt...
got a reply too...
asked myself wad i want to do...and can my ans pull me thru
well i guess now i shall keep a smile if possible and treat it as normal...
-
hanging on till the end of time...waiting , hoping and praying everyday-
10:14 PM
Friday, November 23, 2007
haha...had my first TP pass it on today (campus relay) today...is a 1.5km relay consisting of 7 ppl in a team...was the 5th runner for my team...well was quite ok and wanted to stop and walk halfway...but manage to somehw ran the whole distance and sprinted for the last 100m - 200m...haha
but tink overexerted abit...after the run was abt giddy and whole body was very cold after walking hm...
overall it was a fun and enjoyable event...and to yt do take care and recover soon =DD
a few days ago oso attended the feed-back session....was my first time oso...and quite cool hearing some of the other ppl suggestions... but some of the ppl there are juz too noisy and their ideas/suggestions are juz stupid and lame and no sense at all..and i tink is more of a complain session for thm thn feedback...haha
and shall rest now..haha
11:51 PM
once agn i played wif some tarot cards reading today...
i really do not know if i shld believe it or not...or maybe i shld follow wad my fren say to believe 50% of it...i donno
lost and confused currently...
my only last hope/wish now is to be able to have another chance and tat it will not end juz li tis...
tis is all i wish for...
1:31 AM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
now everyting juz hit me on my head...my tots and my feelings...it juz all come suddenly...and i have no idea if its rite...
have i and i think i failed once again....
Is my and i think my fate wif certain tings had ended and no matter wad i do nth will change...
Is wad and wad i think really gonna happen...if so i guess that the onli thing i can do i let go...thou i really do not wish to do so...
I do not know what to do now...im lost...once again
If only i can show that 100% that i wish to show....
2:31 PM
2:31 PM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
finally started to coding for my MP...well lucky have quite a few reference so i manage to somewad know hw to start...haha
but as i progress today...i got lost and dont really noe wad to do next at certain pt...haha...but shall slowly digest all the codes and algorithms.
and a disturbing ting happened today... TP pass it on which i long ago contacted the teacher and got him noted...but today...i got news tat my place is not in and is taken away....i am like what the hell...i said it like early tis mth whn they still looking for ppl...but now i got the news tat my place is not in...crap!!!
now shall see hw tings progress..and i have a bad feeling abt tis -.-
want some memory abt tings i participate oso cant -.-"
-sometimes the tinking of wanting to hold ur hands juz crosses my mind out of no reason..but i really wonder if it is really possible for me to hold ur hands in mind... and if so whn will it be ??? -
12:21 AM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
well...now all of the projects are really coming up...wif a few dead lines coming up soon...its not surprising to see my frens getting all stressed up wif the works =/
and my MP the more we discuss we find tat out proj is getting more and more challenging and alot of work is needed to be done...hmmm
i really wish i can do someting for them being all stressed up...but well i guess the onli ting i can do now is to provide them wif all my support...
and i promise tat i will always be there to share the burden...and if everyting falls i promise i will be the last to fall and support till the very end and fall the last or nvr to fall =))
11:18 PM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
well...tis yr director's cup practically i watched all the basketball matches
well i would say the most exciting match will be steven liews team vs the "ah bengs" team...tat was the most interesting match of all...
but as i see thm play and fighting for their positions...i really wonder whn can i be able to play like them??? playing in a competition and fighting for the top 3 places...somehw i still feel envy even there is not trophy or wad not...to me i find it is an achievement...an achievement tat i can be proud of...
i really wonder whn will i have such achievements or someting for me to be proud of and ppl will link me to tat once they tink of it...haix...
now work is starting to pile up...but still manageable...and is time for me to start my engine which has been in off mode since god-knows whn...haha
and congratulation to yuan ting and her team for being the champion in captain's ball...and i apologize for not being able to go and support u fully...but doubt its needed anw if i want to...haha
12:31 AM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
today yk and bestie yt accompanied me and ws go kimage to have our haircuts...and i had a new colour for my hair too =DD
well...ws definitely looks better wif short hair...so ws...DONT LEAVE UR HAIR TILL SO LONG LE LA!!! haha
well i have a new hair colour and new hair style...liked the results of both...looks cool...haha...can see at the bottom my hair colour =D
Wei Sheng's haircut process
My new hair colour!!
11:14 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
wad shld i believe in now??
maybe u noe tis will happen? but y do i still go for it? am i stupid? yes i tink i am...always going against tings tat i noe it will happen... wad for i do not know...
is it fate? is it destiny?
can i change thm if i can go back in time and chose a diff path?
now wad shld i do??
its so hard to put on a front to cover up...coz i juz do not want to cause other ppl trouble as it is my own prob...i do not want others to have my trouble to bare and to feel bad...
but wad shld i do??
12:11 PM
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Yes my team A380 consisting of me,zhen wei, yong keong, jun loong, wei chong, viktor, and viktor fren(ps forgot his name)...and i tot wif my last yr in TP i can leave a memory wif me by at least winning a match in a competition...but i guess my tis memory dream will forever remain a dream tat cant be fulfilled...haix and coz of tis lost.. i have an empty feeling in my heart =/
thn today during my entrepreneur tutorial, there is an activity to ask us tink of our skills...and the skills tat i tot of are:
1) research skills
2) editing skills
3) listening and giving advice skills
4) interpersonal skill
5) adaptability
well i noe tat for pt 4 is pure bullshit...haha
but i donno the 4 other pts...do i really possess thm or are they juz plain bullshit too??? tis activity really got me tinking of my roles in grp works and tat do i have any skills tat can really help my grp in projects.
and ya...was watching the d-cup basketball competition today...as i was watching the feeling of 我输得很不甘愿 came to me agn...and was really envy of the ppl playing there =/
and at the same time i oso wish i can go back in time and took a path tat i tink i shld...the path of joining the intsc or shld i say iitsc in the past... as i observe they are a bunch of fun ppl...and i really wish i had joined thm last time...and if i did i will have lots more frens now as compared to the limited social circle i have now...haix...i wish i can go back in time... and chose a diff path...
and tings in the past were so different...everyting are much more fun and enjoying...haix...
11:55 PM
Saturday, November 03, 2007
hmmm...now all the proj is starting to pile up...juz hand up our MP TOR(term of reference) and requirement specs to out supervisor...had some major change in our proj frm wad we had in mind...but overall manage to do out everyting on time and manage to submit it up...
well...i tink our first submission so far is quite gd as we manage to make it as detailed as possible...so i tink is quite gd for our first attempt submission =))
thou i tink my role in the grp is not tat significant...as most jobs are done by yt and jerry...so i dont tink my role is really tat big in our grp..haha
so my grp have these 2 ppl is enuf alrdy...no need me le...haha
since one is gd in programming and one is gd in report...any ting major is covered...haha (being abit emo here)
and me and my frens joined the director's cup basketball competition...we submitted out names on fri and our 1st match is on mon -.-
well wish us luck...oh and we are called.....
A380...haha
-now i have to start all over...i really wish i can have a time machine to go back in time of those days...i really wish so... -
12:44 PM
